Begging

Someone... Anyone... Please listen to me. Doesn't anyone know how I feel. I dont want to be this way anymore. Can't anyone around me notice that. I'm tired of this kind of life. I want to be happy at least once. I don't know what to do anymore. Please someone tell me how to change this. I'm terrified that if I try to change I'll just fail like I did in every other aspect of my life. I'm smart but not technically gifted. If I try to live on my own I'm sure I couldn't do it. I'm useless. I'm really sick of being so useless.